SUMMER | RELAX OR TOIL?

Hey guys,

Do you know the feeling when it's finally summer holiday, but you have to work all the time? Well, unfortunately I do. I have to work so so hard for the money for my journey to New-Zealand. Before summer, I worked even harder to pass my exams and in addition I worked for the money my driving licence. At least I can drive a car now, that's wuite useful when I'm on the other side of this earth. I live on a hill at there, so.. Sometimes I feel like I'm starting to run out and really need a long and relaxed holiday right now.

BUT FINALLY I booked my ticket yesterday!! What a relieve! November 21 I'll leave this small country and I fly to Sydney/Australia with a group of backpackers and stay there for 5 days. We are going to surf at there, doing an Australian barbecue and a harbor cruise with pick nick. After that I'll continue my journey in New-Zealand. My boyfriend works his ass off so that he can visit me. Isn't that sweet? I really feel like I need this. Just to become a stronger person and to let things from past behind me. Maybe some of you understand this feeling. Maybe it's quite hard to understand, that's why sometimes I feel a bit lonely, because not everyone understand. Fortunately for them, of course!

As I told earlier I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). Ahh every time saying this it's like I'm having a bad disease or something?! No, it's just that I'm quite chaotic, which can be very annoying. Just like today and last week. I came six times too early at work.. my boss -of course- wasn't too happy with this. That's why I'm sitting here, writing this post. Because I was at work way too early and I was send home. BLUGH. A big mess in my head these couple of weeks.

And you know what's the most annoying of all? That customers (I work in a D.I.Y store) think that I'm just a stupid blonde without any good working brain cells in my head. What?! Yes, this is true. And they don't care to say that out loud. Just like a customer at Saturday: 'Wow, you know something about doors?! Hahah, blonde.' It really starts to hit me on my nerves.. people can be so rude, you know.

That's why I can't wait to go to New-Zealand. Just a whole new experience, new people, new language, everything new except for my family who lives there. AND, a swimming pool in the garden. Don't forget about the swimming pool.

Enough talking, and I'm sorry for all the negative shit at here. Sometimes you just have to let those feelings go and write it off. It helps, thanks in advance for reading this! I'm really thankfull!

(next to thinking, I really enjoy the summer. Finally, pigment which seems to get tanned.)